• WELLBEING

    Ready to go back!

    I have now completed the Positive Psychology course on Coursera with Barbara Fredericton. I feel a great sense of accomplishment and a bit more confidence to start the offline studies tomorrow. Tomorrow is our first lesson and I feel prepared – which is rare. I guess as we grow up we need to feel more prepared? I used to risk and wait for the boost of energy in the last minute preparations but now I really want to relax while studying. I want to make time for it, take time while doing it and be really good in counselling once I get to practice. I have learned a lot about new psychology academics during this course. I learned about new trends. I also learned a little bit about the practice of counselling and psychotherapy in business, schools, personal coaching and in academic research area too. It gives me a good starting point to learn about the reality of the new profession too. I am trying not to think about all the other things I need to learn and my craving to learn it all. All the books I want to read, online courses I want to take. I am focussing on today’s learning. I find it symbolically significant that I start this new academic adventure with the subject of positive psychology and new, very suitable definition of love – the micro-moments of connection between people that shape our positive resonance and lead to better overall health and well-being!
  • PHOTOS

    Bristol

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    “As I walked out one evening,
    Walking down Bristol Street,
    The crowds upon the pavement
    Were fields of harvest wheat.

    And down by the brimming river
    I heard a lover sing
    Under an arch of the railway:
    “Love has no ending.

    “I’ll love you, dear, I’ll love you
    Till China and Africa meet,
    And the river jumps over the mountain
    And the salmon sing in the street,

    “I’ll love till the ocean
    Is folded and hung up to dry
    And the seven stars go squawking
    Like geese about the sky.

    “The years shall run like rabbits,
    For in my arms I hold
    The Flower of the Ages,
    And the first love of the world.”

    But all the clocks in the city
    Began to whirr and chime:
    “O let not Time deceive you,
    You cannot conquer Time.

    “In the burrows of the Nightmare
    Where Justice naked is,
    Time watches from the shadow
    And coughs when you would kiss.

    “In headaches and in worry
    Vaguely life leaks away,
    And Time will have his fancy
    Tomorrow or today.

    “Into many a green valley
    Drifts the appalling snow;
    Time breaks the threaded dances
    And the diver’s brilliant bow.

    “O plunge your hands in water,
    Plunge them in up to the wrist;
    Stare, stare in the basin
    And wonder what you’ve missed.

    “The glacier knocks in the cupboard,
    The desert sighs in the bed,
    And the crack in the teacup opens
    A lane to the land of the dead.

    “Where the beggars raffle the banknotes
    And the Giant is enchanting to Jack,
    And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer,
    And Jill goes down on her back.

    “O look, look in the mirror,
    O look in your distress;
    Life remains a blessing
    Although you cannot bless.

    “O stand, stand at the window
    As the tears scald and start;
    You shall love your crooked neighbor
    With all your crooked heart.”

    It was late, late in the evening,
    The lovers they were gone;
    The clocks had ceased their chiming,
    And the deep river ran on.”
    W.H. Auden

  • WELLBEING

    Back to books and learning

    So I completed the Positive Psychology course on Coursera with Barbara Fredericton just now. I feel a great sense of accomplishment and a bit more confidence to start the offline Counselling studies tomorrow. Tomorrow is our first lesson and I feel prepared – which is rare. I guess as we grow up we need to feel more prepared? I used to risk and wait for the boost of energy in the last minute preparations but now I really want to relax while studying. I want to make time for it, take time while doing it and be really good in counselling once I get to practice. I have learned a lot about new psychology academics during this course. I learned about new trends. I also learned a little bit about practice of counselling and psychotherapy in business, schools, personal coaching and in academic research area too. It gives me a good starting point to learn about the reality of the new profession too. I am trying not to think about all the other things I need to learn and my craving to learn it ALL!:) All the books I want to read, online courses I want to take. About http://www.ippanetwork.org/. About http://greatergood.berkeley.edu/. I feel excited about finally, after years and years, going back to my childhood dream of helping others by supporting them emotionally. When I was younger I really wanted to be a psychotherapist but I simply did not dare to claim the dream. Today I know that we have many voices in our head but only we get to choose which one to believe and follow. I choose to listen to the one that empowers me to walk another mile, work harder and achieve more satisfaction from the fact that I do something I really believe in. And the trust is that: as the world is moving towards tech and we increasingly move away from human contact (don’t get me wrong, I do not criticise tech at all, just state the obvious) we also start to feel a bit confused. Things change with dramatic speed. Our generation, in my humble option, is the first one that holds the key to the solution of inter-generational gap. The very same generation faces a huge challenge of social web, self-driving cars and AI. What is left then but to dive into how our brains, bodies and emotions feel about all this and how those of us who are more involved in tech can help others manage their worries, fears, inconsistencies? To me it’s almost a natural step in my own self-development – a path I cannot not take. So I am really excited about my Counselling Degree. It is going to be hard – just doing this online course was not easy. I was falling asleep tired after my usual daily tasks, but I took it easy and continued. Even if a bit harder than back in my student times (we had so much time then!) I think I am still benefitting from this educational path much more because I am benefitting from my conscious motivation: I can see clearly what I am aiming for at the end of those four years. With this in mind, I find it symbolically significant that I start this new academic adventure with the subject of positive psychology and new, very suitable definition of love – the micro-moments of connection between people that shape our positive resonance and lead to better overall health and well being!

  • WELLBEING

    What a great time to be a student!

    I am tired but happy. Work started and I feel it creeping into my learning time but I am determined. On one hand, I am taking on more work to allow myself more books and courses. On the other hand, I am pushing myself harder to stick to the working time – I just do work in advance. Today I did work for two clients for the entire month, so I do not have to worry about them and can study. I did the 4th week of positive psychology and moved on to the definition of love – which is very meaningful and -as opposed to static status-like meanings – is actually effective in daily life. I really enjoy studying emotions.  I decided to read ‘The art of loving’ by Fromm once again. It shaped my view on relationships since university but I could do with a reminder now, after this positive psychology course too (I aim to finish it by 18.09). Last night I have also read about neuro-psychanalysis – which is a very exciting new branch of psychology. It does make sense for Freudians and neuro-linguists to collaborate though it was a reminder of my academic experiences to learn that they have initially remained in mutual disrespect for quite a while (not even reading each other’s journals!). It’s all good now and I have managed to find a lot of their published findings online, for free. EU countries announced today that they are aiming to ensure that by 2020 all academic results and work are free. What a great time to be a student!
  • WELLBEING

    The positivity ratio

    Today I have learned more about positivity ratio and ordered Frederickson’s two books to catch up on more of her studies of positive psychology. I noticed that taking notes on paper helps me focus in the still challenging world of household and multitasking, so I will study more in the evenings and with written notes. I also started writing down main points from Gilbert’s book on compassion as it also contains a lot of positive psychology insights and I know I will find those notes useful when working. I know many books can be read on Kindly with notes there, but I want to read and make notes from core ones on paper. School starts tomorrow and I am happy that I paid for my counselling course for this year, prepared study space and time and core books. I will spend all year identifying online resources too and blogging about my journey.
    I have also learned today about the wheel of emotions (above) – I feel I need to learn to name them all so Robert Plutchnik is a good start for that. I also have a book I got for fun read ‘The book of human emotions’ – I will get on with it after Gilbert. It contains cross-cultural perspective on emotions so I learned just from first few sections quite a lot of new feelings. At some point in the future, I will try to blog about each feeling too to emerge myself in them and to learn more about them.
  • WELLBEING

    Positive psychology

    I have paid for the Positive Psychology course on Coursera now to get a diploma so I need to finish it by 18.09. It’s good to be pushed for it as I make more time for studying. Today I have completed the second week and learned so much! I mean instinctively I knew some of those facts but I am so glad that science proves I am not madly positive and naive;) Aside from ‘negativity bias’ (the need for us to live the negative experiences more intensely and respond to them faster) I have also learned that the stable, more sublime, quiet way of living with positive emotions is supported by since and called ‘positivity offset’. We live many more positive moments than negative ones, we just don’t notice them so well, that’s all. In her interview back in 2003, Barbara Fredrickson mentions: “Emotions SHOULD reflect our circumstances” ergo we should feel sad, attacked, depressed sometimes. But most of the time we feel OK, good, inspired, at awe, hopeful, in love. We just don’t talk about it. We are happiness biased striving for some ideal state of super-love or super-happiness. Even back at the university when I studied love and family from Erich Fromm I learned that’s not the case entirely. But nowadays, at the beginning of the XXI century, we seem to promote, even make money on that promise of painless, light and mindless (not mindful) life. So as I study this course I am starting to see just how much work is there to be done for councillors. Acc. to Fredericton’s studies back in 2003 only 20% of Americans lived thriving life – not financially, but from the point of view of that balance.
    Balance is something I have also noticed in Paul Gilbert’s ‘The Compassionate Mind’ (just reading it when I can relax). I really like his list of life challenges were are facing (chapter 2) and the Three Types of Affect Regulation System:
    1. DRIVEN, EXCITED, VITALITY: Incentive/resource focussed – wanting, pursuing, achieving, consuming – activating
    2. ANGER, ANXIETY, DISGUST: Threat-focussed – protection and safety seeking – activating/inhibiting
    3. CONTENT, SAFE, CONNECTED: non-wanting, affiliative-focussed – safeness – kindness – soothing
    The third I find shocking. It should be obvious to me as a mother that it’s needed but having worked in marketing and businesses I was so distracted by the main two forces: seeking/wanting and protecting/hiding that I forgot about the most crucial system: the balancing act of being simply OK, happy with things as they are. Maybe it’s the answers to things I currently find difficult to accept in my life – leaving the full, energetic, emotional life behind for calm and slow paced one?  I guess that’s one for my own counselling.
     For now, I am really pleased that I re-discover the elements of psychology I was already learning at the Uni with the addition of immense discoveries in the last 20-30 years. That learning curve itself is immensely satisfying!

     

  • DIGITAL

    On human skulls and stars

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    Human skull, golden leaf and meteorite- ‘scales’ by Dorothy Cross

    “That is when I understood the magical meaning of the circle. If you go away from a row, you can still come back into it. A row is an open formation. But a circle closes up, and if you go away from it, there is no way back. It is not by chance that the planets move in circles and that a rock coming loose from one of them goes inexorably away, carried off by centrifugal force. Like a meteorite broken off from a planet, I left the circle and have not stopped falling. Some people are granted their death as they are whirling around, and others are smashed at the end of their fall. And these others (I am one of them) always retain a kind of faint yearning for that lost ring dance, because we are all inhabitants of a universe where everything turns in circles.”
    Milan Kundera, The Book of Laughter and Forgetting

  • WELLBEING

    Rogers, meditations and diets?

    A long week of spending time with family, organising things and preparing my life for studies. I have purchased a few more books and a positive psychology course. I have resigned from two public roles (it was always the plan to take them on to practice making time for studies) and narrowed the remaining two to the very minimum. The rest of my time is to be dedicated to studies from now on. I spent a week on a diet and I feel much better in my body now so I hope my brain will be happier to learn better too. I have also subscribed to Headspace premium to get back to my habit of daily meditations and as for journaling I am using the iPhone app for 5 Minute Journal – still struggling with remembering to do it each day but I will get there. Small daily habits of happiness;)
    Tonight I progressed in studying. I read “Active Listening” by Carl R. Rogers and Richard E. Farson to discover just how difficult work must have been in the 50’s! I had no idea! Well, I did, but to see this form of a manifesto to employers is a bit of an eye opener. I was reading it imagining that this is actually news back in the 50’s – and that reality was truly shocking to me. I know I am lucky as I had really good jobs and good mentors in my life but to think that production could be prioritised over individual’s mental health (and by that I mean sense of justness, motivation and common goal) is a bit scary, to be honest. I am glad I read this very short piece and I am sure I will read those 20 pages many more times just as a reminder of how far we have come and what we need to protect – just in case if we lose this progress in mental health!
  • WELLBEING

    Freud, hello again!

    Today was all about Freud. It’s nice to be back with him and refresh my knowledge about psychoanalysis but I am not sure how deep my practice should be. I think I will find out during my Foundation course?

    In creating psychoanalysis, Freud developed therapeutic techniques such as the use of free association and discovered transference, establishing its central role in the analytic process. Freud’s redefinition of sexuality to include its infantile forms led him to formulate the Oedipus complex as the central tenet of psychoanalytical theory. His analysis of dreams as wish-fulfillments provided him with models for the clinical analysis of symptom formation and the underlying mechanisms of repression. On this basis Freud elaborated his theory of the unconscious and went on to develop a model of psychic structure comprising id, ego and super-ego. Freud postulated the existence of libido, an energy with which mental processes and structures are invested and which generates erotic attachments, and a death drive, the source of compulsive repetition, hate, aggression and neurotic guilt. In his later work Freud developed a wide-ranging interpretation and critique of religion and culture.

    Though in overall decline as a diagnostic and clinical practice, psychoanalysis remains influential within psychology, psychiatry, and psychotherapy, and across the humanities.

    Transference is a phenomenon characterized by unconscious redirection of feelings from one person to another. One definition of transference is “the inappropriate repetition in the present of a relationship that was important in a person’s childhood”. Another definition is “the redirection of feelings and desires and especially of those unconsciously retained from childhood toward a new object”. Still another definition is “a reproduction of emotions relating to repressed experiences, especially of childhood, and the substitution of another person … for the original object of the repressed impulses”.Transference (German: Übertragung) was first described by psychoanalyst Sigmund Freud, who acknowledged its importance for psychoanalysis for better understanding of the patient’s feelings.